Thursday, October 10, 2013

rain and leaves falling. is there a better combination? i could have soup for dinner every night, were it not for my carnivorous husband. i love fall, and all it brings with it.

today i am headed to wv to measure a space for clients, then catching cassidy's volleyball game on my way back into town. driving in the mountains in the fall is definitely a perk of the job. nothing exciting, but a day of blessings i want to remember. thank you God!

Wednesday, October 09, 2013

He Is More Than Enough

Looking back at old posts, I am amazed at little details of life I had forgotten. Nuggets that, when read, flooded my mind with memories of that moment in time. Good memories and hard ones, but all part of our family's history. I need that. I need those reminders of the life we are living, and although I journal, I most often write out prayers rather than the details of our life.

And so I want to be more diligent to record our lives here. To make note of each day, because it is a gift. No matter what it holds, it is a treasure from God, and deserves to be celebrated in some small way. Our legacy.

So today, I sit here, wishing for an easy heart instead of one that seems filled with lead, and a spirit that is stretching to reach the surface and gasp fresh air into lungs that feel submerged beneath the weight of the world. For 4 weeks we have been battling near constant and intense pain in Cailin's head, as she suffers from a preventable concussion from cheer. She is unable to do school work or cheer, or just be her happy self. I trust God. I really do. He is her Healer. I know He is the great Restorer. Yet I allow myself to sink beneath waves of doubt and fear, drowning under the weight of what if's and why's. This is not His way. This is not a life abundant. Why do I allow this?

Because it is easier to fret and feel as if I am contributing to her wellness. If I worry and over research I am doing my part, right? I'm helping. When in reality all I am doing is spinning my wheels and neglecting the most important thing. Trusting Him. Relying on Him. Letting Him do His work in her and in our family.

So I remind myself to trust. To let go. To breathe. He is faithful to His Word. He is faithful to my girl. He is.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

i love the ease of summer schedules. or lack thereof, really.
my quiet time in the morning is truly quiet, without the hubbub of teens getting ready for school and rusty listening to his news reports.
wake up times are staggered, and often there are extra sleepy faces joining us. 
i love the girls friends, and having sleepovers and movie nights and trips around the neighborhood in the golf cart.
outside it looks deceptively breezy and so i can fool myself from within, that it isn't really stifling and humid.
i love every season, but most of all, i love the one i'm in at the moment.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Dream a Dream

I'm not sure when I gave up, but I did. In the midst of living, I quit dreaming.
Maybe because my dream of staying home with the girls and then homeschooling were not met I forgot to find new dreams.
Maybe when those dreams were not realized I gave up hope.
Maybe they had changed and I was living new dreams without even recognizing them.
Whatever happened to those old dreams, I know God still has great things for me. I just need to discover them.
I have always been a seeker of beauty, but have ceased to look and create.
I am a lover of peace but have forgotten it starts within.
Passionate for Jesus. Desperate for His grace and mercy. But fearful of not finding it.
I wonder if this is just part of life. Re-examining. Evaluating. Trying again.
I hope so.
It is for me.

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

Summer Lovin

Time with these people fills me up like nothing else. I am so grateful for the memories of laughter and love.

Monday, May 13, 2013

Mother's Day 2013

Cailin Anne has become very interested in painting, 
and this afternoon whipped up these two pieces for Nana and I. 
She knows Nana has always wanted a parrot, Papa does not, 
so she painted one for her to have always.
The beautiful flower is mine for my office.
Isn't she amazing?

The Girls
Snuggling by the fire.
It was the perfect day of breezes and 70 degree temps. Trees blowing in the breeze, a canopy of green overhead. I love spring. Even more, I love being surrounded by my family.

I'm so thankful for these days and this family.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

When we choose to be right before righteous, we are doing it wrong.